Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Whom Shall I Fear?

I do not know about you guys, but I have multiple fears. There are a few that are logical and make sense for me to fear, for example, snakes, heights without something to secure me, needles, and objects propelling rapidly towards my face. On the other hand, there are a few that are just quite ridiculous. One of these irrational fears was revealed to all my friends this past Thursday
My homeschool group took a trip to SeaWorld on that fateful day. I have grown up at the beach so marine creatures are nothing new to me, but I adored every moment of the trip. My friends and I all rode the roller coasters and had the best time. I rode every single roller coaster there without any hesitation. I adore flips, turns, and the rush of adrenaline that courses through my veins as I embark on the wild journey. I participated in every ride in the park, but the one situation that terrified the bubbles out of me? An aquarium that you walk over to see the fish.

I am not joking in the least bit. I was so petrified at the thought of stepping onto a glass surface to witness the fish and sharks nonchalantly paddling underneath. Even my mother did not comprehend my horror. She instead continued her attempts to persuade me to venture out onto the glass death trap. I eventually was forced to join everyone out on the aquarium, but was frozen in fear as I noticed that there was a glass aquarium above us as well. It was through assistance of my friend that I was able to remove myself from the despicable perilous circumstance.
 It wasn't even the critters that I was nervous about. I just had this insane notion that the structure beneath my feet was going to break!
This isn't even the first time this fear as been introduced in my life. Ever since I was little, I have been frightened by these: 

Storm drains. *shudders*

Look at them! What if a semi had parked on it the night before? What if an obese person had been standing on this certain storm drain just before I had to cross over it? An elephant could have been practicing his tap dance routine on it the previous day for all I know! The reasons as to why this storm drain would immediately collapse after I set foot on it are limitless.
This fear does not end at storm drains. If I can see the ground through the structure, I am struck with terror.

This is beautiful. I would cross this bridge any day. The height would not bother me in the least.

Now this? You can see the water through the slats! Just for that reason, the bridge must be instable, in my opinion. That is the kind of bridge that would crumble underneath me if I attempted to venture across into the opposite side of the forest. Even if you put an entire stack of books and a lifetime supply of oreos on the other side of this bridge, I would never ever ever even consider traversing to the further end.
I have been reminded countless times that everything is in God's hands. But, is it that horrible of me to not want to tempt Him by stepping onto the storm drain? I mean, I really do not want to fall into the dark abyss that lies beneath me and be consumed by a sewer alligator.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Joshua 1:9
He will be with me even across the storm drains? Even across those blasted storm drains. My God is with me wherever I go.
This post did not really have a point. There has only been a few people with whom I have divulged this secret fear with, so consider yourselves fortunate. You can laugh at me all you wish. My own mother was chuckling when I told her that I was scared that the glass of the aquarium was going to break beneath me. I guess the real reason for this post was an attempt to discover if I was the only person who experienced a strange fear.
So, let it out, what's a strange fear of yours? I promise none of us will laugh. :)
Forever and Always a JesusChick ♥


  1. I've been afraid of stepping on storm drains before. :) And that aquarium thing and the bridge thing, too, I can echo. I hate heights. I guess I'm just afraid of falling, and I hate heights. Needless to say, the first time I went to a theme park 2 years ago I was *ahem* a huge party pooper for the group I was with. The first roller coaster I had gone on was the tallest one, and had made me sick so I didn't want to go on any of the other rides. :/
    I'm also really afraid of drowning, and I can't swim well. Nobody understands my reason for that, that when I was little I almost drowned once, and I still remember how scary it was. So i guess you could say I have many fears. I have to often remind myself when I get afraid: "I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength."

  2. I haven't been in an aquarium like that...I've been to one that had the fish above your head. And maybe it IS a bit silly, but everyone has their "thing" you know. Storm drain creeped me out as a kid :P Um...for me I hate bees and spiders...and ear wigs and crickets (the mountain kind or whatever, I like real crickets) and any type of creepy bug. I have a fear of heights of what I'm standing on is unstable. And...I don't like putting my hand into dark places. *shivers* I probably have others but those are the ones right off my head :)

  3. Pretty much all of Tris's fears. XD Not crows, really, though ;)

  4. I have a lot of irrational fears and get anxiety over things other people wouldn't think twice about. When I was younger, I was at Sea World and had to walk through this place with glass one either sides of me and above me, AND THERE WAS HUGE SHARKS IN THERE! I was terrified and absolutely hated it (I absolutely hate sharks), and I was sure I would not survive. Hey, I considered writing to the TV show "I Shouldn't Be Alive"!<--Actually I didn't but whatever. Men scare me, and I am being dead serious.

    So yeah, you are so not alone in weird fears.:) Great post!

  5. change.
    falling for someone.
    turning 16.
    leaving childhood.
    being onstage alone.
    being disliked.
    these are my top fears.

  6. I actually don't have any fears at all, take that Tobias.

  7. I can totally relate to this! Maybe not that exact fear (although I know my cousin used to be nervous when in an auditorium or such because of the thought that the big ceiling might come crashing down), but I'm afraid of things like change, stuttering over my words or saying something wrong to someone (especially people that are older than me), and, for some reason, I hate being left up at night when the rest of my family is asleep. :P

    Great post! :)

    God bless,
    Joy :)

  8. It was very brave of you to write this post!

  9. It was very brave of you to write this post!

  10. I feel like we would be best friends. Honestly. I hate walking through aquariums where the ceiling and floor are glass. And storm drains always freak me out, too. I have too many other irrational fears to list. lol. One of them is sporks. Is it a fork or a spoon? lol

    Hehe, I actually just wrote a post about fear, too. lol

    In Christ, Emily

  11. hey girl, just wanted to say I had to change my bloggy address. just wanted to let you know ;)

  12. That is great! I really can't stand things with slats/holes/etc. in them either. Especially storm drains when I was little. *gulp*. The chicken pic is soo funny!

  13. This is an epic post! Thanks for sharing your fears... I don't like bridges either. I used to be extremely scared of dogs... if I heard one barking, I would have to cross to the other side of the street. I still am not super comfortable around most dogs, but it's gotten better. Now, my fear of loud noises... that is an entirely different story...

  14. Haha - finally, I've found someone who is also afraid of savage chickens! Great post!
    Maddy :)

  15. oh I totally understand that. I have huge problems with being terrified that things are gonna break under me. :)

    my top fears:
    bridges, *every time we drive across one i sit there wondering if it's gonna break and thinking about all the bridges that have broken in the past. :) *
    being rejected
    getting lost
    etc. :)


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